Give me Jesus - Reflection on my Murud’s Trips
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- Published: Monday, 28 August 2023 08:48
- Written by Judith Tang
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1st trip -Full of excitement and anticipation with lot of preparation as the date drew dear to conference date. Now looking back, in my first Murud’s experience I was prepared like I might get trapped in the jungle and prepared as if weather or trail are going to post a major hurdle for the team reaching the church site. Imagine I was carried a heavy load of battery in by backpack in case I might need them. 1st Murud’s experience did caught me by surprise that the temperature was around 10 degrees Celsius at night and I needed 2 sleeping bags which our Lord provided through kind sisters from my team. And the manifested presence of God was AWE STRIKING. First time in my spiritual journey that I experienced power of God in every session of the conference. I was dumfounded. I was deeply touched by the tenderness of God’s love toward me. I was tearing like a baby, God’s love overwhelmed me and God is touched, healed, and restored aspects in my life that I did not even know were there. I just knew that I was loved and made whole. I was immersed and drank in the deep love of Jesus which I never experienced and I desired and desiring more of HIS love.
Since then, my heart was made softer, becoming more sensitive to Spirit leading and doing in and around me. My personal encounter with our LORD at Mt Murud marked a deeper yearning in pursuing HIM and desiring to make HIM known to others praying that others will encounter Jesus just as HE had chosen to reveal HIMSELF to me with this mountain top experience.
6th Trip- Minimal excitement and slight anticipation. The Lord revealed to me I need a renovation of my heart. What began as a passionate response with love has now become a dutiful task with responsibilities. While eager to see others experiencing and touched by God, I am careless in my own attitude in my own continual pursuing of God. Yes, I still want to love Jesus and encountering HIM but I am losing my single heartedness, whole hearted pursuing of HIS love and loving HIM. Though my heart still yearns to love JESUS but I was preoccupied by mundane responsibility of life. My 6th Murud’s trip is the exact picture of my busy hustle bustle of my every day running of responsibilities and chores in life. God is ever so gracious and loving to you and me. Our life journey in this world will be crowned with things that will compete with our love and devotion to our LORD. It is a heart that is attentive to the teaching, leading, rebuking of Jesus Spirit, it is a heart that is made aware and recognize our own weakness and vulnerability, it is a heart humbled and surrendered, it is your heart and mine that cried “Help me, Lord, I am willing. Help me to love YOU.” God search our heart and take delights of a heart that is willing but hold tightly only to HIS grace and love that strengthen our journey with JESUS all the days, all the ways.
Give me Jesus- Fernando Ortega